125 days since my surgery (4 months)
It is four months and three days since my surgery. I’m doing great. But today I am going through all of my pretty blouses and work clothes that I love. Because most of them are V-neck my scar is now the first thing you see if I wear any of these.
I know this scar will get better, and in a year or two from now I might even be able to wear a v-neckline without worrying about it. But today I just feel sad.
Maybe only the women will understand, but I love so many of my things. I felt so confident and pretty in so many of my outfits. I know people say “don’t worry about it, who cares if your scars shows.” But I’m an executive and a professional, and I don’t want the scar to be the first thing someone sees when they look at me.
Anyway. I guess I’m having a little bit of a pity party over here. And I should probably be grateful that I can afford to buy new clothes. But today, I’m just sad.